In Defense of Myself

Yeah okay, I admit. My sibling and my cousins pretty much hate me.

It started with my cousin and with the family herd mentality eventually they found reasons, meaningful or otherwise, to cut me out. I attribute it more to mob mentality than anything.

I made a Facebook post in 2010 saying that if I had children that repeated corporate slogans I would take them out to the woods and shoot them in the back of the head. This was a “Of Mice and Men” literary reference so I’m not surprised most of my family didn’t get it. None of them read or are well read.

What did happen was that my cousin took it to mean that I would shoot her kids. I mean, it’s a bit of stretch. Anyways, we haven’t talked much since.

There were other things on Facebook that annoyed her like when I went to Hawaii and was writing about how people in Los Angeles are animals. Admittedly, I did write FB posts like “oink” or “shit smell.” Probably because I slept the night around dirty diapers and smelled shit all throughout the entire night.

Plus, sometimes I would get up early in the morning to do stuff and she didn’t like that. I would be ironing my clothes for a job interview or extra work and she would barge in, have me dismantle the whole thing, wait for her to do whatever she was doing, and then I would have to put it back up again. It’s like if my life was anything other than letting my Grandmother take me to Cheesecake Factory than I was shitty.

My other cousin was living with us at the time and I remember a morning-time conversation where my cousin was saying “We were just extras” like it was a waste of our time, or frankly I don’t know other than it was definitely in a negative connotation.

I think the whole kicking me out for my Facebook post was more making a mountain out of a molehill so there would be more space for her upcoming third child. See, she lived (and still lives) in a cramped house with her then husband and children. This is aside from my Aunt and her husband.

My Grandmother is dying but even now I have to make special arrangements to see her because my cousin controls that house even though she probably doesn’t pay the mortgage.

I also want to mention that most of my family is extremely reactive, ignorant, and perhaps not even that bright.

Once, while living in Thailand I posted a picture of a Thai guy wearing a swastika rainbow shirt that said “Nazi.” My one cousin flipped out like, “How could you post that!?” and one of my FB friends even responded first like “This dude is obviously not a white supremacist and you need to chill out.” Not to mention you see that symbol all around China and Vietnam because believe it or not that is ASIAN in origin, not German and not Nazi. Well, he cut me out.

I was asking my other cousin (there’s another post with the chat capture) what the merits of Bitcoin were. I was explaining to him that I consider it an experiment at best and never an investment. I asked him multiple times, “What backs Bitcoin?” Instead of answering the question he decided to attack me personally saying, “What’s the value of you? You need to be happy. Why are you so miserable?” Well, he cut me out for asking it over and over again. Ironically, someone hacked his Bitcoin and I’m guessing he lost 100k plus and needs to find a job as a Systems Administrator again.

Most people have heard of FaceApp the phone app where you can take a picture and it will make you a baby, make you young, make you old, and make you the opposite sex. I decided to try it out and have it as my WhatsApp profile picture. One of my religious looney Uncles messaged me saying along the lines of “What is that? That’s gay shit. You better not be playing with makeup.”

My sister is anti-vax with a boyfriend who believes the world is flat. I asked her if she knew about the theory that not vaccinating children puts other people at risk. There is a past blog post about this. She straight up doesn’t give a fuck. Eventually she cut me off too.

So… I’ve been cut off and am a pariah to my family. Is it that bad? Well, when I write all this stuff out it kind of seems like a badge of honor to be honest. If I’m a pariah it probably means that I’m more sensible and rational. I don’t live around shit. If I see a symbol like a swastika I don’t have a knee-jerk reaction but can rationalize what I see internally. I don’t have religious hangups about using a phone app that will turn me into a woman.

My mother always makes me feel like I have the problems. The truth is I’m probably more in the center of the bell curve when it comes to general intelligence and rationality and a good portion of my family is below that bell-curve.

Stepfather’s Life Advice

Right before the time I had to leave the house and get my own place my stepfather sat me down and had these words of advice.

They were roughly:

“Become a United States Immigration Enforcement Agent.”

Like ICE or something.

And look at them today. Their actions are definitely creating pain and suffering for others.

That was the type of person my stepfather was.

State of the Family May 2019

My sister and her boyfriend pretty much live off my mother. They need her to help take care of their kids and provide a place to live.

Well, my sister’s idiot boyfriend went to some Tony Robbins shit in Europe. So the money he saved by NOT taking care of himself, my sister, or their kids he used to go to London or some shit.

What a loser.

Money Solves All Double-Standards

A few years ago when I was new to Hawaii I was living with my sister, her boyfriend, and her boyfriend’s mom.

One day there was a problem with my tablet so I spent something like three days in a row to fix it. I ended up fixing it and feeling very good and proud of myself.

Then my niece just took the tablet and dropped in on the ground and broke it again.

I made an angry Facebook post saying, “Kids are selfish and destroy your shit.”

This was enough to get me kicked out of their house.

Now my sister, her kids, and idiot boyfriend are living under my mother’s roof.

My mother called my niece a “snooty bitch.” This is way worse that anything I have ever said.

I’m pretty sure my sister and her boyfriend aren’t going to take offense while packing their shit and leaving. My mother basically takes care of them and their crotch goblins.

Did I mention I come from trash?

Twitch Vapidity

When I do not meet enough people in life, in particular these past few years, I tend to try to supplement being around people with online methods. One of those methods is watching Twitch and sometimes interacting with the people doing their streaming “shows.”

Not surprisingly, aside from a few streamers the medium is mostly a toilet.

I watch mainly attractive women because I like watching them do stuff. Plus, the Big Island is kind of devoid of hot girls. There are a large number of women who do nothing but just have their mega-breasts hanging out for the whole stream. They rarely say anything and not surprisingly people give them hundreds and in some cases thousands of dollars. Just the other day I was watching a girl with cat make-up and cat ears and all she did was stare dully into the camera. She was beautiful but this shit gets boring after a while.

Some girls like to dance around, play video games, or cook things which is really more appreciated. That can be fun… for a while.

Others are just so self-absorbed and annoying it gets ridiculous. It’s like watching someone stroke their ego with a hundred and seventy viewers to reinforce their ego trip. The Twitch Developers usually encourage this inane shit because let’s face it, they have mostly heard about girls in books.

The handful that I keep returning to watch have something to offer like their personality or they are just interesting people to watch. I was watching this Korean girl karaoke the song “Maria” for a couple of hours because she seems like she’s insane. Thousands of people were watching her as well. It was bizarre but super enjoyable. People who are actually gamers are sometimes interesting to watch because they enjoy playing games and aren’t just doing it for the money. This whole industry is new and I think many people are joining the bandwagon just to make a quick buck. Particularly super-model type girls who normally don’t give AF about video games but do it because they can get a guy with Aspberger’s to just drop $500 on their channel in a second. Hey, this really does beat a real job.

My point with this is this: Is this the future of entertainment? The big studios have been ditching making quality shows and movies for the more cost-effective “Reality” genre. They usually are phenomenally successful too like The Osbournes or Kardasians. This Twitch platform is just a future devolution towards easier to make but ultimately shittier entertainment. Remember how good Seinfeld was anyone?

I can’t wait for the biggest show in the universe to just be some girl staring into the camera dressed as a cat showing her massive mega-titties while she checks her phone or chews gum. That’s quality!

I usually avoid watching guy streamers because it’s mainly entitled white privileged assholes like PewDiePie who just like to say misogynistic and racist things all the time because that’s how they normally are in real life and think most people are like that too.

There are a handful of streamers I do want to mention that I really enjoy watching though. First there’s Livibee because she’s really beautiful and her personality is bright and bubbly. Not to mention she’s sweet and a Master Starcraft player. There’s Angrypug who I watch because he is funny as hell. KatGunn aside from being really beautiful actually has a great personality and is into nerdy shit like comic books, metal, and video games.

Old White Shitheel

If there’s something I really hate it’s old entitled white men.

Look at this ass-licker for example. Totally engrossed in the American system. Flag worshiping and believes Democracy is in the “soul” rather than created by the Ancient Greeks.

As for his “Why weren’t you in Hiroshima when the bombs fell” comment that is completely racist he probably does not even notice it in the slightest.

If I could destroy all these dinosaurs like him with a snap of the finger I would.