May 1st, MayDay, Fuck My Stepfather

May 1st 2020

There is a dangerous coronavirus out in the wild that is extremely contagious and fatal to a certain subset of the population.

The Landed class wants people to risk their lives for GDP, the Stock Market, the Economy… For a few percentage points of gain. Meanwhile, the worker and their families can go die.

This is the world my Stepfather helped built. He was always quick to call me lazy and worthless. However, he had his start working for his father. They sent him to an all-boys Catholic private school for God’s sake. He was supposed to be this righteous man who worked hard. He inherited plenty of priviledge.

What about being a Captain in Vietnam? Is that virtuous? Maybe, probably not. He was sent there to kill men, women, and children. Furthermore, maybe there were special connections that kept him safe. He only got his Purple Heart because he ran into a minefield.

His son took over his business. Society is such a meritocracy.

Money was the center of his life. Before he died I think he tried spending as much as he could. It’s ridiculous.

He didn’t believe in doctors, scientists, or global warming. The same type of people are standing in front of the capitals of their states protesting for the “right to go to work.” I think he might be the type of idiot to support that.

He also didn’t believe that cigarettes could kill you, so he spent a good ten years in agonizing pain and eating out of his stomach tube. Of course, sometimes the subject of Agent Orange is brought up in relation to that, but please, he had a two pack Marlboro a day habit.

Now, people are hiding from this virus because a lot of them do not have healthcare. This country is a lot like my shitty stepfather and doesn’t believe everyone deserves access to healthcare. Well, man is not an island, now if someone else is sick other people can get sick from them. It’s almost like Universal Healthcare is for the “Collective Good,” but that term probably doesn’t exist for these people. The roads and highways probably magically popped up as well.

What is the point of working for employers who are indifferent to our death? They are there to wring us dry like a rag for all our moisture while offering a pittance in return. If most people realized this they could just stop working and demand concessions. However, not in the idiot United States of America because most people there are fucking morons.

In my heart I am hoping that the United States actually observe May 1st, May Day. But, even with the horrible crisis going on I don’t think they will. You’re talking about the dumbest and most selfish people on the planet.

Why Sanders is a Threat to the Military-Industrial Complex

Bernie Sanders wants everyone to have healthcare, access to education, and other social services like childcare. Many in Europe already have these things and have had them for decades.

Usually, when people are poor and live in non-prosperous areas they turn to the military to help provide them with job training, access to health services, and when they are done with their service money to attend the school of their choice. This is all provided they do not get killed, blown to bits, or end up a vegetable for the rest of their life.

Bernie’s plans would alleviate many people’s woes and the army would prove a less attractive opportunity if peoples were guaranteed a certain standard of life.

You see, America is a neoliberal dystopian shithole. Poverty has always been a major recruiter for the U.S. Army. People are born poor and they sign up in order to escape their poverty. Given how generally shitty America is there is never a shortage of recruits for this volunteer army. There are always people willing to go fight for freedom, or more likely, the resources of other nations. There is the phrase, “Your zip code is your destiny.”

The United States Military is the most socialist institution in the county. They will pay for your housing, day care, medical needs, and educational tuition. In exchange you have to go around killing brown people. They love it more if you are a brown person and sign up too.

It’s ironic that many indigineous peoples of the U.S. make up a huge portion of recruits. What they do is basically destroy other peoples’ societies and culture. Exactly what was done to their ancestors. I see a never-ending cycle.

It comes as no surprise that the United States does not have free tuition or universal healthcare. Without it they can’t get poor people to go kill other poor people in third world countries who happen to be sitting on oil or some other precious resource. Given Global Warming, if you believe in it, the world is just going to have less resources like water and people are just generally going to be more aggressive and fighting for dwindling resources. Of course Jesus Christ might come in before that all happens so you never know.

So yeah, America should do better but the elite have a huge advantage that the average person is lethargic and apathetic. They are usually too poor and ignorant to recognize the predicament in the larger sense.

Fruits of Rational Living

Living rationally is important.

It is a shame that most people these days can not do a cost/reward calculation in their lives.

For example, the cost/reward ratio of having an unplanned child or whether or not to vaccinate.  The cost and reward of pursuing higher education.  The cost and reward of letting debt pile.  The cost and reward of living life scientifically or through the dogmas of religion or New Age living.

I cause a lot of grief when I ask questions regarding people’s actions, but these questions are really asked out of concern and love.  It seems reason can not penetrate ignorance and over-reaction.

It is forgotten that most people are more like the rest of the Animal Kingdom.  Quick to react and less likely to rationalize or process concepts or ideas.  Emotions dictating judgment.

I find the best revenge is to live the best I can.  I have much to be thankful for.

I do not have creditors calling me or people I know looking for me.  I never started using a credit card.  I did not need the instant gratification of buying things with deferred responsibilities.  I have started preparing for the future by going into index funds.  I have no children because I know it is very expensive and energy consuming to raise them properly, and especially here in the United States.

I have traveled the world and made friends.  I have had experiences only an un-tethered life could provide.  

For many, I notice their lives are getting harder while my very own is opening up to vast opportunities.  I will have the ability to roam the earth again.  My mental state will not be unhinged by having to take care of children or pay back a car loan.  I am not a fool.

Still, to this day I am doing new things and having new experiences.  Meanwhile, I see that others are becoming dejected and burdened by the everyday trivialities like having children, working low paying jobs that demand too much from the individual, dealing with the consequences of their ill-chosen significant others.

People who were once relatively happy and youthful have grown old and have become former shells of themselves.  It is one of the biggest tragedies I have seen happen yet I am powerless to stop it.

I swim in the blue oceans of Hawaii and laugh.  In the months ahead I will be on a plane headed to the next exotic location.  I look forward to new cuisines, women, friends I will make, experiences unfathomed that I will partake in.  For others, maybe they struggle to take care of their children.  Maybe they get evicted or their house foreclosed.  Maybe their children lead a lesser life than they were given.  At worst, maybe they get killed in this violent America.  Chewed up and spit out in this machine cycle that I keep seeing enveloping loved ones.

This is revenge.  It is truly sweet.  Most importantly, it is passive because I am not living my best to spite them but to make myself happier.  When I’m floating on my back in the Andaman Sea.  Or letting monkeys run loose crawling on my body at a sacred temple.  Or when I cash out Bitcoin to start a retirement fund.  I think to myself, “This is truly something.”

While other stars have burned out and faded away, mine continues to rise.  It rises still.

Why Am I No Longer Conservative Anymore

At the tender age of twelve, I identified myself as a Conservative and right-wing Republican.  See, I was watching Orange County television every night.  I tuned in to see Wally George, a precursor to the modern day Bill O’ Reilly and Sean Hannity.

I was very impressionable at this page.  I would watch Wally bash homosexuals, proponents of marijuana, and basically anyone who disagreed with Reagan-esque America #1 type politics.  I would chant “SICK SICK SICK” along with his drunken audience.

At the time I was attended Robert Fulton Middle School which is full of minorities.  There was a large latin and black gang presence at the school.  I basically thought I was going to school with future criminals, and to be honest I probably was.

Basically, I had a lot of frustration and other people seemed like a scapegoat.

Later as I was exposed to different people I eventually grew out of this phase.  Of course by the time college arrived I was more independent-minded and less likely to identify with conservatives and their rhetoric.

However, I think my experience at twelve years old gives insight into how the modern day conservative thinks and what the motivations are behind their views.

I can’t be conservative because I really that life is not a simple black and white anymore.  As a matter of fact, nothing in life is really that binary.  Even nature and gender does not cut things right down the middle often mixing the different sexes with each other.  It’s humans who created this dichotomy of pure male and pure female.

I definitely use cannabis, am for equal rights for women, and am accepting of homosexuality.

My views are more science based on studies, data, and statistics.  I am not hyper-nationalistic like a lot of conservatives.  As far as other minorities go I at least can understand a little better the predicament of the neighborhoods and the people in the past I had so much disdain towards.

I can not be a conservative because it’s basis is in rhetoric which is not readily proven by facts.  Even worse, I believe most of their beliefs come from the Christian Bible!

I do believe that most conservatives have a very low intellect.  Thankfully my intellect grew as the years went by and I was able to rationalize my way out of conservatism.

Finally, I have to say the spectrum of different people I have encountered throughout the years has kept me away from conservatives.  I have learned that there is no one superior culture or outlook on life.  Conservatism requires you to fear the other and become very xenophobic.  I usually find that people heavily steeped in conservatism also happen to be very racist or have a problem with certain groups in society.

I have evolved past conservative rhetoric.  I think most other conservatives have had their growth blunted.  Perhaps their emotional and intellectual abilities stopped developing around adolescence.  I’m not sure.

Looking back at the past I was a chimpanzee or a monkey.  Perhaps I was a one-celled creature without even a brain.  Today I look at myself and see myself striving close to Ubermensch.  Not quite there, but evolved past a large segment of society where few people get to make it on their journey.