I continue to try and become a better person every day.
I am trying to treat people with respect and acceptance. I try very hard not to react emotionally to criticism or outright aggression. Most of this is received from online sources such as Reddit or Facebook, but there have been a few times in Hawaii I had to just let something go or let something slide.
Empathy is something I work very hard to improve. I am always asking myself, “What does this look like from the perception of my mother?” or “How would this person feel about that?”
It’s hard. I fail sometimes. I fail big. I insult people on Facebook, particularly the Hawaiian Paradise Park group. It makes me feel better for just a little bit because I get so frustrated, but then after a while I regret it because it’s juvenile and petty.
Taking risks is something that terrifies me. When I do take risks I try very hard to calculate it to mitigate damage. However, at this point in my life, I think that if I am not taking pure risks then I am missing out on a lot in my existence. I have been terrified to go into the workforce, for instance, but if I don’t the quality of my life might not what I want. My options too limited. So I have been trying like hell to find gainful employment I could be proud of.
Anger is something I suffer from a lot of time. I am an angsty millennial who maybe sees life as stacked against me. I am trying to stay away from the news, Trump-hating, and being resentful towards the upper-class establishment. I don’t want to resent anyone!
Next year I will continue to be better than the last, and so on. Ever striving in the path of the Overman, never to reach his exalted heights but in the process improving myself on the individual level.
