The other day in class during live rolling the best I could do against a sixty plus-year-old woman was get to a standstill.
She had submitted me or got into a dominant position multiple times.
Granted, if the test were pure strength I would have won. However, this is superior technique we are talking about.
Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu is the ultimate in technique and most other forms of martial arts pale
in comparison to it. Not to mention that it produces far better fighters than traditional martial arts.
I am doing Jiu-jitsu multiple times per week.
Getting stronger every day.
Things that used to bug me are not getting to me.
Better now… stronger now…
I have recently gotten into a spat with my mother. She wants me to work a job that I would really have huge apprehensions about working.
See, when you do the math correctly, the position comes down to less than minimum wage. This is work that not any random person can do. It involves numbers, Excel, computer competency, and in theory you need to be available 24/7 for any requests.
There must be a huge line for that position, right?
Well, not really. For some reason, they have a hard time filling the position.
However, my mom is upset that I’m not taking this wonderful opportunity.
I think it has to do with my family coming from a piss poor upbringing. One where opportunities are few and far between. A lot of my family had kids without establishing a career or education. The thought that I would even negotiate wage is repulsive to my mother.
They have a mindset that things are scarce. They might even think they are low worth.
It’s 1:00 AM and I’m up making music…
This is the result:
I have been unfairly critical and demeaning of the people of Hawaii. Now that my time here in ending I feel regret.
Yes, I do feel isolated and that the people here are kind of odd. I mean, it’s an island in the middle of the ocean separated from just about everything else this world has to offer.
Yet, we are all sentient beings with needs, wants, and hopes. The people here are just trying to survive to the next day. It must hurt to see people come in this refuge and then alter the way life is conducted here. Strip malls are being built. People are buying houses and only living in them a few months out of the year causing the average price of a home and living to rise.
There are wonderful people on this island. There are loving people here. There are people that if they saw someone suffering the street they would immediately do everything in that power to help lift people up.
Let’s not end my time here on a bad note. I want peace. My entire family loves Hawaii. I have Hawaiian cousins and family. My grandfather was born in a plantation town called Nalehu and I have ancestors buried in unmarked graves around the rainforest.
For some reason, my ancestors from Japan and the Philippines decided to leave their homes and make a new community out here on these chains of islands. I will never understand that, but they did.
People out here look like me. People around here look like my family members. I can not help to go around town and have a strange familiarity with the people.
So when I am gone and leave, let me just say that even though life was not ideal this island and the people are part of my heritage whether I like it or not. I know that as soon as I open my mouth most people probably reject me or think differently of me. But, I do have a stake in these islands. I can claim them. Deep down, I’m the same, you just never realized it or bothered to find out.
I know that no one reads this…
I know that if an employer would do an in-depth web search and find this site they might think I was crazy…
I need an outlet. This is my outlet.
I am happy right now on this little island.
It’s not exciting, but it’s comfortable.
I enjoy this genre very much.
It has kind of taught me to live life as an individual as someone separate from the rest of mankind because of my rationality and scepticism.
Many artists also emphasize nature and the power of the forests and mountains. Extreme and powerful weather like blizzards.
On the one hand you have your bands that sound a bit punkish (I know I can get a bit of hate for this) like Carpathian Forest, Mayhem, and some of Gorgoroth. It has a very tongue and cheek and blasphemous portrayal of Christianity and society.
Then you have the artists like Emperor and Satyricon which kind of approach the genre as a high art almost.
The people here have a caring for the general well-being of people. I think it is like this all throughout the islands.
They are generous and giving. If you are starving they will feed you. They are big on helping.
I am happy.
I am living a nice quiet life in Hawaii. I do Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu a few times a week. My body is transforming and I am feeling healthy.