Why Am I No Longer Conservative Anymore

At the tender age of twelve, I identified myself as a Conservative and right-wing Republican.  See, I was watching Orange County television every night.  I tuned in to see Wally George, a precursor to the modern day Bill O’ Reilly and Sean Hannity.

I was very impressionable at this page.  I would watch Wally bash homosexuals, proponents of marijuana, and basically anyone who disagreed with Reagan-esque America #1 type politics.  I would chant “SICK SICK SICK” along with his drunken audience.

At the time I was attended Robert Fulton Middle School which is full of minorities.  There was a large latin and black gang presence at the school.  I basically thought I was going to school with future criminals, and to be honest I probably was.

Basically, I had a lot of frustration and other people seemed like a scapegoat.

Later as I was exposed to different people I eventually grew out of this phase.  Of course by the time college arrived I was more independent-minded and less likely to identify with conservatives and their rhetoric.

However, I think my experience at twelve years old gives insight into how the modern day conservative thinks and what the motivations are behind their views.

I can’t be conservative because I really that life is not a simple black and white anymore.  As a matter of fact, nothing in life is really that binary.  Even nature and gender does not cut things right down the middle often mixing the different sexes with each other.  It’s humans who created this dichotomy of pure male and pure female.

I definitely use cannabis, am for equal rights for women, and am accepting of homosexuality.

My views are more science based on studies, data, and statistics.  I am not hyper-nationalistic like a lot of conservatives.  As far as other minorities go I at least can understand a little better the predicament of the neighborhoods and the people in the past I had so much disdain towards.

I can not be a conservative because it’s basis is in rhetoric which is not readily proven by facts.  Even worse, I believe most of their beliefs come from the Christian Bible!

I do believe that most conservatives have a very low intellect.  Thankfully my intellect grew as the years went by and I was able to rationalize my way out of conservatism.

Finally, I have to say the spectrum of different people I have encountered throughout the years has kept me away from conservatives.  I have learned that there is no one superior culture or outlook on life.  Conservatism requires you to fear the other and become very xenophobic.  I usually find that people heavily steeped in conservatism also happen to be very racist or have a problem with certain groups in society.

I have evolved past conservative rhetoric.  I think most other conservatives have had their growth blunted.  Perhaps their emotional and intellectual abilities stopped developing around adolescence.  I’m not sure.

Looking back at the past I was a chimpanzee or a monkey.  Perhaps I was a one-celled creature without even a brain.  Today I look at myself and see myself striving close to Ubermensch.  Not quite there, but evolved past a large segment of society where few people get to make it on their journey.